Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

closing time
"washing" during a drinking session
closing time
dessert
closing time
curtains down
closing time
doors locked
closing time
sign of the cross
closing time

it was a long night
our longest travel home
the final drop off
complete silence
if only our heartbeats can be heard
if only the jumbled words inside my head have loud footsteps
it was already the break of dawn
we knew that this is our closing time

you broke the dead air
we didn't know what to say anymore
we already knew everything by heart
fingers interlaced
and then, that soft sweet kiss on my hand
the teardrop that I was holding for a long time fell
tight embrace

wishful thinking
high hopes
hearts' desires
mutual understandings
uncertain future

be patient
be happy
be lovely
be free

i will be the best me for the best you
another hug
this time it's tighter
iloveyou and iloveyoutoo

memorized every single detail of your face
we kissed like we don't want it to end
our lips won't let go
it tasted like our cigarettes
smelled like you

finally, i opened the door
stepped out of the car
but i came back

for the last time we squeezed and smooched

the sweetest goodbye
the start of our healing

 

My eyes opened as I wake up and I realized that all of these were just random memories from a dream that just seems so real.

Girl Chums over Beaux

I've been reminded how important are those people who've been really there during my struggle. I came to realize that my girlfriends are the most important type of friends ever. They are the ones who literally cry and laugh with you through your highest peaks and lowest downfall . I've been very blessed to be surrounded by girls. I studied in 3 exclusive schools for girls (Miriam College, Holy Spirit School, and St. Bridget) since I was in Kinder until high school. Up until college and at work, my set of friends were ruled by ladies. Maybe because of the profession I chose. So for 24 years of my existence, I came to know variety of women and found the bestest for keeps!

Unfortunately, I lost contact with my Miriam friends because there were no Facebook yet during that time when I left.

I was in my 5th year in grade school when I met my bestest best friend, Daisy. I had a separate post about her in this blog. Click here.

My high school friends are crazy special. We started as bus mates and then everything was history. I'm proud to belong to this barkada where you can find the dancing heartthrob, the Atenean magnet, the blooper chick, the angelic diva, the sweetheart next door, and ms. independent. FYI, I can say that were not just beauties but ehem we got the brains! We belong to the larger group who rule the corridors and make the young ones cry cause of envy.(Kidding! That's too much!) To cut the story short, we are the local mean girls just of lesser bitchiness. Don't be deceived with their smiles cause you don't know what's running behind their beautiful minds.

April 2007 - From Left to Right, Angela Galvez, Manna Leano, Kristine Macatlang, Me, Andrea Tecson, and Junee Sevilla      

March 2011- It will be just us three for now. :)

I realized that as I age, my group of friends becomes crazier. My college loves are composed of 2 men and 10 girls. Told you people, who run the world? Girls! We started as 5 then boomed to 12 and counting. 

2007 - Sandralyd Atienza, Leslie Co, Catherine Javier, Noreen Busto, and Me

2007 -Through black or white, through thick or thin, through all those fun and crap!

November 2010 - We nurse hard and party harder! - December 2009

September 2010- Trying to rule our crazy little world. - December 2007, January 2010

These ladies and 2 gents are the people I can bug in the middle of their sleep, in the middle of their duty, or even in the middle of whatever their doing just to tell them the latest update about my roller coaster love life or anything under the moon and stars. The distance and unmatched schedules are keeping our bodies apart but not our hearts.

Here comes the most controversial set of girlfriends I have. We have one major thing in common. That is - we were in love (back then) with that one person who lead us to one another. Thank you, you!

Kat Antonio, Me, Milette dela Cruz, and Andre

It's very extraordinary to find a buddy in your ex's exes, but here we are, not just friends but real ones!

I always say that they are my most favorite people. We were brought about by fate - that the men we've been with were best friends since they were fetus. We share the same headaches, heartaches, and all the other aches! We laugh at the same people and at the same mistakes that were passed by one ass wipe to another.

Rose Pangilinan, Me, Katrina Tadeo, Mio Marquez

at The cursed resort

Our little angel and first born, Stefan Alexander

I know that one day, we may or may not end up with those men who brought us together but we will still be Mares for life! :)

I swear to myself that my girl chums will be prioritized more than any other guy from this day forward. Those men will leave me hanging but not these ladies of honor. 

I love you chicas! Cheers to all the SHEs!

Detour

paper paper

It took us too long to realize that there is another way. It may be riskier but I'm hoping that it will produce faster and positive results. Everything will be finalized next week. I'm very anxious about this. So help me God.

It's their turn now.

I'm not bragging (okay just a little!) but I can say that my sisters and I were achievers since we were little. We were always included in the top 10 of our class. Not only that, Mum comes up the stage every year to shake hands with our principal as I receive my Certificate of Recognition from 1st grade until 4th when I was still in Miriam.

It's also a tradition that our parents give us treats for being diligent kids. One of the most exciting days in my life is the Sunday after the giving out of report cards. Dad and Mum bring us to the mall. Eat lunch at where else? JOLLIBEE! And have some indoor mall rides after.

However, everything is different now. Sept. 17 when Ate Jet met with Avi's teachers and told us the good news!

Top 7 it is! :)

 

Celebrate good times come on! Last Sunday in spite the typhoon, the kids came over for Tita Keiko's treat. We went to the mall to try the rides, ate loads of chicken and sweets.

our little einsteins

helicopter ride and bump boats

just like ninang. :)

How I wish they won't grow up so fast.

I love you darlings!